Black Ninjas!!

Today was Nate's first soccer game and they actually did pretty good. They ended up losing but for only having one practice...and just now meeting the coach for the first time (he had been gone for the first practice) they did awesome. They still got some things to work on but all in all they were pretty good. Theres alot of natural talent on the team. Nate was awesome and wonderful and marvelous when he was playing goalie, he wasn't afraid to dive for the ball or anything. We just need to work on drop kicks, and his field play. Anywho...here are pics :)

SLC and Back in ONE DAY!!

Today we went up north for Tyler's doctor appointment with Dr. Morales. It was a VERY long day but it had it's upsides. We left at about 6:45 this morning....ugh sooo early! Me and Ty slept most of the trip up....so that made it go by quick. I can't believe all the construction up there! It was crazy! So we got the doctor appointment out of the way and all the scheduling for surgery out of the way, and were up in the dental clinic scheduling the surgery to take out his prothesis, and what happens? They call a code blue (a code meaning someone has stopped breathing) in that very clinic! Ty was amazed at all the people who ran past us, from nurses to docs to security to office people...one thing I know, if something does happen to Ty, he will get speedy help! They are good up there! Then after that we went to eat at Chuckarama and right out the window, the Trax rolls by. Ty wanted to ride on it soo bad! And my mom told me my dad had been wanting to ride it for a long time, so we parked and hopped on. We rode from Trolley stop clear to Central Station and back. It was kinda fun! It was late though, so we had to get headed home. On the way home, it was soo windy that we passed a semi that had just got blown over! It was crazy! And then...we went back to sleep haha! It was a very long day and lots of driving but really good. Oh and as for update...Tyler will be having the same day surgery to have his prothesis popped out on Sept 14, then his actual surgery is on Oct 6.

Dad was soo funny...had the big ol' map pulled out lookin just like a tourist :P

Bored on the way up...after I had woken up.

Ty got his own ticket...and was SOOO excited!!

Dad washing the Blazer with Nate and Ry..doesn't really have to do with the trip but I thought it was cute :P

1 of 2 things.....

When God leads you to a cliff, trust him fully and let go.
Only one of two things will happen...
He will catch you when you fall, or He will teach you how to fly.

Ryder is sleeping, the house is quiet...and kinda messy (I should be cleaning not writing this but oh well)...I'm listenin to my new favorite song She Is Love...and I get this email (thank you Steph for sending it). It tells a sweet story of a wealthy woman who takes care of a homeless man, who in previous years had taken care of her when she had nothing. The story was good, but what got me was the qoute...when God leads you to a cliff, trust him fully and let go. How many times have I hit that cliff? Oh wow more than I can even count.
I've made some stupid choices in my life that did lead me right to the edge. I've felt utterly alone, and like no one understood. But as I was thinking back on my life, I realized the second part of the qoute is true as well; 'He will catch you when you fall, or teach you how to fly.' I have fallen..and hard. But I was helped up and dusted off everytime.
So this brings me to my life at present. I hate my apartment, I hate my job, money is too tight, and the list goes on and on. I could whine and gripe all day. And why? because I'm not doing my part. I am too scared of falling. I don't want to hit rock bottom again...even though I'm already headed there if something doesn't change. But I'm afraid of change. Notice anything similiar? Fear. Fear of pain, fear of hurt, fear of stress, fear of soo many different things that could all go away if I could just let go and jump...and have a little faith. I keep making excuses of why things aren't my fault, why I can't change things around, and it took a good friend of mine to give me a little slap of reality.
He literally told me to quit whining and making excuses. If I want a new job...look for one and actually apply. If I want a new place, call around and get budgeting to see what I really can afford. If I want a better education....get one. Do what it takes. And he's right...I didn't have any excuses anymore when I was done talking to him. And whats the worst that will happen? I fall...and land right back where I am right now.