Bowling

We've been doing some fun stuff this week...and last night was bowling and pizza! We had a blast! The kids actually did really good (with the help of bumpers and the ramp) and I got 2 strikes! But thats the best I did...after that I lost horribly hehe. But its all good. I didn't think to take lots of pictures...but I did get one. Ryder was kind of ornery because he didn't like the fact he had to share. But what do you do. Anyway...it was fun all the same! :) This weekend should be fun filled so I will post pics Monday!

De Carved Punkin

Spoooooooky!

Here are our finished products with the pumkins. Nates is the biggest one...Tylers is the one in the middle with star ears...Ryders is the one at the end with a star and an airplane (yes its an airplane...my carving skills are awesome! hehe)

I think they look pretty cute and are now part of our front porch. I haven't decorated for Halloween so this works for decorations in my book.

The boys have also finally decided on costumes. It just took 10 years for them to decide and 5 stores later....

Nate is going to be a black ninja (he wanted snake eyes but I'm not about to pay $20 for a costume. I'm cheap)

Tyler is going to be...a mad scientist. No a ninja. No a clown...finally he decided on...a cowboy

Ryder was going to be a dog...but once Tyler made up his mind he REALLY wanted to be a cowboy too but there was only one cowboy costume....so he settled for Woody. and now won't take the hat off ever.

I hope I get to have the boys at least for a little while this Halloween, I still need to talk to D about it. Crossing fingers!

Thoughts for the day

My thoughts for the day...

I am feeling more at peace with my decision to not take the home. It is still very bittersweet, especially when the people who are most likely going to be taking the house instead of me came in yesterday. So I'm still a bit sad...but its the best decision.

I'm grateful for my family. Everyone has been soo supportive of me and the boys. I am very grateful to have a family who cares about each other and will do anything they can to love and support each other. I'm truly blessed.

I'm overloaded at work. I'm happy that our new counselor started this week because its going to be really good to have some help. And she seems really nice and willing to help out with anything we need, so I'm happy shes here and I think it will work out well.

My trips to Dallas and Washington DC are coming up pretty quick, and I'm rather excited to go traveling again. I enjoy my trainings and the extra per diem money is going to help out quite a bit right now.

I'm starting my 6 week body makeover plan next week and am rather excited about it. A friend of mine started last week and has already lost 13 pounds just by eating foods that speed up her metabolism. She hasn't even started working out as much as the plan advises. I'm hoping I'll have good success with it as well. My only issue with it will be eating as much as the plan calls for. I'm horrible at eating while at work. So we shall see how it goes. But I love this diet because you eat 6 meals a day (little ones of course) and exercise of course. No diet pills, no quick loss promises, just healthy food and exercise. I was on it when I got married and lost about 20 pounds, but quit doing it. So I know it works...just need to stick with it.

Hopefully today is a better day and things buck up a little bit. I'm still in the downish phase from the house...but it will all work out. This just wasn't the time I suppose. Hopefully better things are coming soon. Anyway...Have a good day ya'll!

Carving pumpkins and corn maze

We have had such a good time the last couple days, its been a very nice stress reliever for me! Last week the boys picked out some pumpkins at Scott and Betsy's and on Sunday we decided to carve them. It was quite the feat to do but we all had a great time! Nate and Tyler dug right in and got messy...but Ryder wasn't too fond of the gooey stuff inside the pumpkins. He did however try diggin stuff out with a spoon after most of it was out. I didn't even think to get the after shot of the pumpkins, I'll have to post some later. Yesterday we went with Dad, Mom, Valena and Melissa to the Staheli farm for the corn maze and they had an old school carnival type deal set up as well. It was really cool! We got lost in the corn mazes, then the boys rode the train that was being pulled by a tractor and we watched some baby pigs racing! I tried to get a picture of the pigs...but those are fast little dudes. None of the pictures turned out. After that we petted the animals for awhile and played on the swings. We were all getting pretty hungry so we ended the night at In & Out Burger. Mmmmm! So in no particular order (literally....they downloaded out of order haha!) here are the pictures from the last two days!

Here are the boys riding the tractor train. I was amazed Ryder actually went and didnt scream!

This slide was fast! They zoomed down it!

I actually got a picture of Ryder digging into his pumpkin

This one is really dark...but after the corn mazes we played on some giant hay bales until the tractor came back to pick us up

A good shot of the boys all carving their pumpkins

The boys playing on the hay bales at the corn maze

I hate tough decisions (venting post)

And this decision is the toughest I've made in a LONG time.

Do I stay where I am at

or

Do I take the new house

The reason this is a tough decision is because I have wanted to own my own home for SO long. Like as in YEARS and I don't have very good credit. Nor do I make a whole lot of money. So doing it on my own is kind of not an option right now. So when this opportunity came up for the new house through work, I jumped all over it. Now...its all coming to pieces. ERA won't let me break my lease. They have been trying to find someone to take the lease, but no luck yet. And I have to make the decision today. My thoughts are running about like this.

Taking the new house....

PROS:
-I would have my OWN home

-Stability for me and the kids

-Neighbors that I know I'd get along with and be friends with

-An AWESOME deal on the house

-Having great note holders (my work of course)

CONS:

-Added utilities (water/sewer/garbage)

-Double my gas expenses for the car

-Money would be even tighter than it already is

-Having to figure out what to do with the old place

-Possibly having to be evicted from old place since theres no other way to break the lease

-Having homeownership expenses like needing lawnmower, washer, dryer, etc

Staying in my old house....

PROS:

-Not worrying about extra expenses and gas money

-Won't have to wake up earlier to get to work on time

-Kids have lots of friends here

-Won't have to worry about extra payments or deposits and such

-I'll actually get my deposit back

-Kids won't have to start over again

-I got a washer and dryer (its a big thing...believe me!)

CONS:
-I'm still renting

-I don't have any friends there (after 8 months there I know 2 neighbors)

-My ward is horrible which is slowing my progression in that aspect since I don't feel comfortable with my bishop

-The kids really want their own space...one to call their home and that place isn't it

-They were also SOOO excited to move, its heartbreaking that they are going to be disappointed

So what do I do. Thats the big question and I have to decide today. The keys for the new houses are being handed out today. So I have to know. In my heart I really want the new house. In my head...I know its smarter to stay where I'm at. Deep down I have a feeling I should stay where I'm at.

I don't know.

Grrrrr

I am soo irritated right now. I just spoke with my property management group and they will not break the lease where I am at now. The only way I can get out of that lease is to have someone take it over. So until someone takes over the lease, I am required to pay rent there. So in essence...I will be responsible for $700 rent there until my lease is up in January...plus my $650 house payment.
Now I realize I signed a legal document (the lease) and that I should be accountable for that. I guessed I would've hoped that they would appreciate the fact that I'm improving my living situation (they are a real estate company too....geez!) not to mention the fact that here at the office we have been very nice to them, we have worked with them, heck we didn't take legal action (which we very well could've) for some things that happened between them and us.
I don't know....I guess I shouldn't expect them to break a lease. As mom puts it...what makes me feel entitled to have them break a lease? I just have never had anything like this happen before. Most landlords are flexible and will work with people. I've yet to deal with a landlord that has not been. I guess there is a first time to everything.
Soo....its time for some decisions I guess. We will see what happens.

Good Examples

Do NOT be like this guy....bad example...very bad! Blehhhhhhhhhhhh

So there is a person who I met a while back just in passing, a friend of friends (And no this is not some life altering moment of meeting the right dude or whatever). I don't know him to well but every time I have run into him he has been so polite. He also stands up for what he believes and he will kindly let people know when they are going to far with something. Like, for example, if someone is badmouthing someone else he will tell them to stop. He will freely give compliments and truly means them when he does. He truly cares about the well being of his family and friends. He is also an old fashioned gentleman. The kind that opens doors for girls and offers to pay for everything and such.
The reason I bring this person up is because it got me thinking about my own boys. I have really tried to instill the gentleman thing in them and they have good examples all around them constantly. But they also have bad examples around them alot and I just hope the good outweighs the bad. They are pretty polite I think...usually they use please and thank you and excuse me and they are usually fairly helpful. They have also recently been standing up for their beliefs. This horrid neighbor girl goes to the play park and swears up a storm, using words a sailor would blush hearing. For the last 3 days when she is out there, the boys tell her to stop saying those words and when she doesn't they come inside instead of playing. That makes me one proud momma right there.
So anyway, I just want to make a shout out to my friend and all those other gents out there who really strive to be respectful and gentlemanly. You are awesome examples to my kids and are truly gems in this rough and tumble world. Sweet people like that are few and far between unfortunately but I'm happy to know that there are still a couple good guys in the world today. :)

Busy Busy Busy

The next two months are going to be busy busy busy I decided. I'll be moving at the end of the month plus Halloween, the new counselor and I just got approved for scholarships in Texas the middle of November, although I really don't wanna go the full week so I'm hoping I can just accept the scholarship for the 2 day class only instead of the normal 5. Then its Thanksgiving, then off to DC we go the beginning of December for a week. Then Nates Birthday, then Christmas...then its a NEW YEAR! 2010 has sped by at lightening speed.

It has been a crazy year thats for sure but its also been a strengthening year for me...and the final steps to my stabalization plan are in the works. Which makes me even more happy.

Step 1- Good, stable job. Check.

Step 2- Safe place to live with no cockroaches. Check.

Step 3- Buy a house. Check.

Step 4- Get my life straightened out. Work in progess.

Step 5- Lose Some CHUB! Also a work in progress

(found my 6 week body makeover from like 4 years ago, I lost like 20 pounds the first round then fear of acknowledging my chub set in so I stopped. I've come to terms with my chub now so its time for it to find a new home :)

Step 6- Find a true gentleman. Yeah...prospects but no check yet.

So...I'm doing okay I'm half way to completing my plan. And I can't expect it all to happen in a year..or two. I know it will take time. But I feel good about the last year. There has been some (ok quite a bit of) turbulance along the way thats for sure...but things really are improving. I feel like I am not the same person I was 3 years ago, or 2 years, or even last year. I feel like I'm truly progressing which is what life is all about right? So hooray for new experiences and for life finally starting to turn around and go well for me and my little family.

My Kids Are The Best

I've decided lately that I have some pretty humorous kids. They kinda make me laugh so here are the reasons why.
1. Ryder is starting to copy EVERYTHNG that EVERYONE says. Its kinda cute...except when he picks up naughty stuff. Like him and his brothers downstairs this morning singing "stupid stupid stupid" But he also says cute stuff, like delissshhhhus (delicious) and when we are reading books he likes to point to characters and say "whas dat guy?" And if I get it wrong...he says "Nooooo its ____". But he does it with every character on every page. Sometimes...we have like ten "whas dat guy? and dat guy? and dat guy?"
2. Tyler makes me laugh a bit. This morning he put on a pair of Ryders pants (that fit him actually) and said "How do I look momma?" I had to tell him to change considering they were capris and I didn't think that would go over well at school. So he comes back with "But they are MY size...they said like 5T. Thats my size. Not Ryders size" (they are 2T....yeah).
3. Nate is rather excited to move. He was the corporal of the packing team this morning or something... they decided to start packing our food. After I told them the food is the last thing we pack. And as I come downstairs he says "I told Tyler not to...I told him we had to do something else first (as he has 2 cans of spaghettios in his hand ready to put them in the box).

These are probably not humorous to anyone but me....but I sure think its funny and they make me smile. :)

Yay for the weekend!

This weekend could not have come soon enough. I have been on an emotional rollercoaster the last couple days and I'm not sure why. Lack of sleep maybe? Or nervousness over the house deal? Stress at work? Probably all the combined reasons. All I know...is that I'm ready for my weekend. Gonna do some hardcore cleaning and packing this weekend and hopefully get everything packed up but the essentials we are using. Thats my plan. We'll see if it happens.
Although stress will come first of course. Working on our quarterly billing towards are grants...and I messed up the grant previously so I'm extra nervous this time because I'm at the emotional breaking point right now and I really am tired of messing stuff up. This is the only job I've ever had where I mess up on things. I don't know if its me...how I'm trained...I don't know. Its frustrating though and leaves me second guessing everything I do.
So here is to Friday...you will bring me loads of stress today my dear Friday, but hopefully you will end with relaxation and peace.

Random Conclusions

So I've decided a couple things.

Firstly, I'm kind of lazy. Which brings me to my next point that for some reason when I'm getting ready to move...I let my house cleaning go a little. I don't know why I do this...but for some reason I do. Which is actually harder for me in the end because I have to clean doubly as much later on. But I am actually looking forward to packing...I just need to find some boxes first. My soon to be new neighbor is gonna try to hook me up with those. Thats good.

Secondly, I'm rather excited for payday tomorrow. And thats humorous considering I'm not gonna have very much spare money left after paying bills and paying for some of this moving stuff. But I will have enough for a $0.99 chicken nugget from Wendys which I have been craving for like 2 weeks but haven't really had the money to get plus I've really been trying to not eat out as often. Been doing pretty good too. Instead we just eat unhealthy food at home :)

Thirdly, my kids rock. They are sweet, hilarious and mischievious boys who make me smile alot. This time it was Tyler who has made me smile this week. When we drive past the cemetery (which is like 3 or 4 times a day in our commuting) he always asks "Mom don't you wish we had a grave for Grayson?" I say yeah and he says "Yeah me too. One of these days right?" He is such a sweetheart. Granted after that him and Ryder are screaming at each other or he's kicking Nates seat to annoy him.

Lastly, I love the show Raising Hope. I watched it for the first time on Tuesday and its crazy funny! I really kind of hope I'm not like the mom on that show...seriously crazy but not aware of my craziness. But it was also kind of insightful. The mom was going crazy over family pictures making them dress up in really funky themes (like 50s poodle skirts and skiers in the middle of Cali) to try and make them look like the perfect happy family. But their best picture through all the years was taken by a traffic violation camera, and it was the best family picture because it had caught them all in a happy spot. No stress or anything, just singing "Whack-a-doo" with each other in their old beat up truck. Reminds me that I need to quit stressing about being "perfect" and just enjoy the time I got with my family :)

Some Personal Revelations

*This is more religious than I ever am...*

So its been a....thought provoking....week for me. We have a different mix of girls here at work religionwise. One is a Catholic, one got married in the temple but her and her husband feel like the church is a cult, one is inactive and then there is me. We have been having different converstations about religion here (which I know is bad since we are at work...but we don't have the wierd religious/political craziness thank goodness). They had brought up alot of different things that made me question my religious choice a little bit. Like if we are all sealed together...then how are we to have different "mansions" and such considering I'm sealed to my parents...and if the boys get sealed to me then get married and are sealed to their own families...how does that work? And why is it that only "good" mormons get to live in the highest kingdom when there are some truly amazing people out there of different religions? And although actual stuff that happened in the temple was not discussed out of respect, the one who had gone through said that was their deciding factor to stop practicing the religion. She felt extremely uncomfortable and that sealed the deal for her. So all this talk made me start questioning things because it was kind of ringing true.
All weekend I had thought about it and I decided to go to my parents ward instead of my own which was probably smart. I went in to church thinking why is this the true church? How can this be the true church?
The funniest thing happened imagine that.
As I was sitting through church listening to the testimonies and thinking about these questions of mine and I'll admit..being a tad bitter....and the same answer just crept into my head over and over. "Its all going to be taken care of. Your not meant to know some of these answers yet. Trust that it is all taken care of." And all my hostile feelings just kind of disappeared. I felt at peace. I still had my questions...but it was more for clarification now than for proving my point.
Alot of my discomfort was about going to the temple and what happened there. Fear of the unknown I guess you could say. So it was rather humorous to me that when I got home, a temple preperation handbook was sitting on my living room floor. Not sure where I got it or where it was hiding, but it turned up right there. So I read it. Later that night I called mom and asked my questions. She helped clarify some things and made me feel at peace. She took away my concern about going to the temple and helped me to realize some things about myself too.
I think I can honestly say that I am now finally ready to start my journey. I'd felt it was time previous to the work conversation but that had thrown a wrench in my feelings as had some other personal issues. But I feel like the adversary is trying to really work hard on me for some reason and I think he knew I was ready to start my progression...and really didn't want me to. So I'm feeling good about the decision now. When I get settled into my Enoch ward, me and the bishop are going to have a chat. I really hope and pray that he is a good man who is understanding and loving.
I am scared however. I have alot of fear about this whole deal...but also a huge sense of peace and that peace is finally outweighing the fear. I truly feel like its something I need to do in order to progress and I want to be a good example to my boys.
*Deep breath*
So here I go.

Frustrations...

This is going to be a boring post about my job so just a forewarning. If you follow the news pretty well you will know that on Friday, Bank of America announced that they would be halting foreclosures in all 50 states and more Lenders are looking at following suit. This is mostly due to a HUGE number of files being caught without appropriate signatures, files being put together sloppy, underwriters and negotiators not reading stuff before they sign it, and the list goes on and on. This has caused a HUGE number of people to lose their homes to auctions that probably should've have.
I've experienced this first hand with my clients.
And its sad.
Frustrating.
Irritating.
Unfair to all those who spent almost a year (and in a lot of cases more time than that) out of their lives doing their due dilligence to the Lender only to have them come back at the last minute (literally in most cases) and say whoops...sorry you don't qualify. Your house is being set on the auction block in a couple hours. So it wasn't too big of a shocker when this came to be.
As positive as this move seems to be...its also rather scary. Yes it gives us a little more time to process modifications and such (which I have a feeling will be delayed anyway cause of this all) but....they are not halting the foreclosure process. Just the auction sales. Which means more and more houses are nearing the end of the foreclosure period and when the moratorum is up...there will be thousands upon thousands of houses that are due to be sold. And my bet is...they will be. I'm guessing its going to be a mass posting of auction notices and no postponements. And its sad. I'm just hoping that this move will benefit my clients as well as anyone else trying to get assistance before everything blows up.
So I'm happy that someone is finally stepping in and saying hey...your screwing up and need to fix the problem now. I'm very grateful for that because the issue did need to be addressed and honestly, I don't know how else they would've addressed it. I would've rathered them put the entire foreclosure process on hold... but I know that would've been too hard.
I don't however look forward to whats going to happen after this is all said and done.

What a sad time we are living in. Very sad.

House Pictures Continued

So here are some more pictures...I know overload but these will probably be it until we move in then I will be probably getting even more haha! So here we go!






This is a picture of the ribbon cutting. Holding the ribbon is Steve somethin from Enoch I think and H. Kelly from Utah Housing Corp is bolding the bow. Ashley (my new neighbor) was top pic and got to cut the ribbon. The guy in the blue shirt is Mr Peacock from American Express (the investor for the homes) then me, then Heidi another tenant, then Justin from SMJ Construction was behind me. This is the model of home I had my heart set on...but didn't get. BUT...I'm happy with what I got...its growing on me :)

For my sister...this is the back yard looking at our patio...obviously. There isn't a ton by way of landscaping other than the rocks and grass but its all good. I'll take more pictures later on. There is however a HUGE field of grass between my house and the one next to me. That will be nice.

This is the view from the back patio. At first we were kinda irritated that they didn't sod the entire backyard, but now I'm rather happy because I can plant a garden if I want or trees or flowers or get woodchip and a swingset...yeah. The property line ends at the top of the little slope. We will most likely be getting fences in as well, it was under debate but Mr Peacock asked at the ribbon cutting what kind of fences we would like to have. I think thats a good sign.

And finally....the finished and completed (including landscaping) picture of my house. Yup thats my baby :) I plan on adding some flowers and stuff to it next season possibly but we will see. So anyway...here it be!

New House Pictures

So here are some pictures of my new house...before the finishing cleaning was done. but its still clean. we took more pictures today at the ribbon cutting but H forgot her camera cord...so these will have to do. And to my sister...backyard pictures are coming soon...they are on that camera as well :) Maybe I'll convince Grandma and Grandpa to take a trip out there and we can take some pics on their phone. So in totally random order...


The master bath and closet

The entry way

Part of my living room

The boys' bathroom

A random pic of one of the bedrooms

The dining room

The kitchen

I'll post the outside now that its landscaped later on. Yay! :)

New House

I know I know...everyone is gonna be sooo tired of new house talk by the time things are done. But today is the Ribbon Cutting for the houses. I'm kinda curious as to whether or not they are actually going to be cutting a real ribbon, considering there are 5 houses. But we will see. It should be nice. One of the other girls who got a house is going to be giving a little speech (if she flakes out I'm the back up...scary). And there will be drinks and treats and such. The people from Utah Housing Corp who are funding the houses are going to be there as well as the builders (SMJ Construction), the families moving in to the houses and who knows who else. It should be a good little party I think. I'm rather excited about it and still really nervous...but the excitement is outweighing that today.

Cold Feet

So I'm starting to get pre-house cold feet. I am SOO very excited to move and to have a place to truly call my own. This will offer some really good stabilization for me and the boys and I don't plan on moving again anytime soon unless completely necessary. It's finally our soft spot to fall. We have our ribbon cutting ceremony tomorrow and one of the other girls who got a house is a sweetheart and offered to bring me in boxes after her shipment at work gets here. I also put in my 30 day notice this morning. So why the cold feet?
Well.
To move in I need to come up with $400 up front for the keys, then $250 later to finish the "deposit" of sorts. Apparently to get the W/S/G in Enoch you have to put down a $200 deposit before they turn them in your name. Then of course the payment for next month coming up. It's thankfully pro-rated for the 10th of November even if we move in later so its only like $450. But its kind of scary to think I'm going to have to come up with $1100 somehow within the next month. I'm not so worried abt the payment next month since its on already planned to come out of that check but geez I never realized it would take so much money to get into these houses at such a short notice. I really wish they would've stuck to the original plan of January being move in so I could prepare.
But...I truly feel like this is the best thing for us right now. I feel like if I just do what I need to do, the higher powers will help it happen. At least thats what I'm praying for and feel truly deep in my heart. So I guess now its the time to have faith...and maybe this is why I feel ok about the decision to move. Heavenly Father knows I need to show a little faith since it is definitely my weak spot at the moment.
So I'm trying.
Hard.
I have faith this will all turn out okay.

Reason 50384 to MOVE

I have several reasons I am excited to move. *I'm signing the paperwork today and making it official yay!* But reason number 50384 (yes i made it up but i'm sure there are that many reasons) I found out last night. I have a neighbor who I found out is a registered sex offender. If I remember right, his charge was not towards children per say, it was relations with a minor if you know what I mean. Not as scary of a charge as others. BUT STILL. I hate that there is a registered sex offender next door.
So anyway...on to explain my reason. Last night, we were eating dinner and I hear a knock. Its this neighbor. I wasn't wanting to answer the door but he was RIGHT THERE looking at me. So I go see what he wants and he is looking for his wife and son, who have been gone since the morning; who took all their clothes and money and important papers with them....(get a clue dude, they be gone). He went on and on about how he is sad but what can he do and he will have to file divorce and la de da.
Then starts hinting that he can't be alone, he's scared to be alone....and then starts asking if I'm single. Yeah. Here's the reason 50384 to move.....NO SEX OFFENDERS HITTING ON ME!

Blessed!

After listening to a little bit of conference...I decided I have a lot of things to be grateful for. My top 5 are:

1. My family. I have the best family ever. I really and honestly don't think I could ask for a better family. They have been supportive to me and proud of me. They have been sad for me and disappointed in me at times. And I'm happy for that. My parents especially. I have not made their lives easy. But they still love me and support me.
2.My kids. No matter how much they drive me crazy or disobey me or whatever...I love em to death and can't imagine life without them.
3. My job. I am sooo grateful for my job. Its taught me a ton about life and has helped me to grow. And I've developed alot of really awesome friends!

Whoops....distraction got me. Now for the final two....

4. My health. There have been alot of things going on lately that have made me appreciate my health. From a tenant of ours dying from health issues, a kid from my home ward dying of a heroine overdose, reading of the poor couple who the husband shot his wife then himself because he couldn't stand to see her in agony suffering from alzheimers...the list goes on. I am soo grateful I was never stupid enough to get into drugs and ruin my life like that...and for not having any serious health issues. And I'm working on my chub issue...so hopefully that will be resolved soon as well.
5. The military. I know...I'm obsessed. Probably overdose obsessed. But you know what? There are thousands of people across the world, most living off of less than the bare essentials so that the bad guys stay far away. I truly believe if they weren't over there protecting us...the US would be in big trouble. Major trouble. And I appreciate not having to worry about dying, getting bombed or shot, losing my kids, etc. Soooooooooo judge me for being obsessed but at least its a healthy obsession and is out of genuine gratefulness. :)

Thats all folks....have a good day! :)

My Official New Address

I officially got my new address! Because I came in 4th on the rankings, I didn't get the house I really REALLY wanted, but the one I got is nice and I love it too. Plus it has a TON of little nooks and character that I hadn't noticed before. So I'm rather excited! :) Below is the house.... but take note it is now fully landscaped and completely finished...these pics were taken before completion.

I Can't Believe...

I can't believe its already October. This year has zoomed by insanely fast for me. So much has gone on and I'm looking forward to whats to come!

I can't believe in about 30 days I will be able to move into my new house! I'm getting more and more excited... but its also going to come with a big responsibility considering I will have to really adjust my budget for the w/s/g payment as well as a bit more money for gas to drive in to town. But I think it will be managable. I find out today which house I got and I will post pictures soon! :)

I can't believe how big the boys are getting. Ryder is no longer a baby...hes a full blown little boy. I was noticing yesterday he no longer has his chubby tummy or little baby features...he's all toddler. Its awesome to see how they grow...but kind of sad to see them grow so fast. Nate and Tyler are getting bigger too. Every day we find something new that they can do. Its amazing.

I can't believe that in only 3 months Christmas is going to be here! Thank goodness for my DC trip because its going to give me a bit extra money from my per diem to buy Christmas presents. Little blessings in big packages I think.

I can't believe how much my life has changed in the last 10 months. I feel like I'm finally becoming grounded and stable, and its an awesome feeling. I still have a long way to go until I am finally where I want to be, but I'm getting closer and I can see that now. It's kind of a great feeling when you realize your progressing, even if its just baby steps.

I can't believe how much I've grown in the last 10 months. H and I were talking about it on Friday, and this job has helped me gain confidence; it's helped me get past some of my fears; its helped me learn how to stand up for myself; and its introduced me to some awesome and amazing people in this community. I truly feel like I'm growing up for real now.

Today Should Be A Good Day

I am still on a bit of a high from yesterday. I am sooo very excited about this house deal. And apparently we are moving in a little bit sooner than I expected....as in....I'm probably going to be giving my 30 day notice next week. Next week we will be deciding who gets which house, and the ribbon cutting is next Friday. Things are wonderful. :)
I'm also happy for today since I will be organizing and restructuring my program a little bit. I gots to get ready to train the new girl and so I'm going to go through and reorganize.
And thats about it for the day. Have a happy weekend all! :)