A Small Change

I have no idea how to put my thoughts into words right now but I am going to try anyway, so bear with me. This one is going to be more of a journal entry type I can go back and read later on, so probably pretty boring to anyone else but it will help me later on. :) 

The last two weeks have been interesting for me. The new job has been awesome. I've had the opportunity to work with and meet some truly amazing people that I know I'm going to enjoy working with and the goal there is to be the best, and not to settle for anything less. I feel truly honored that they sought me out for their team but it's made me realize I really need to step up my game a bit too.

On to a random tangent for a minute....we went to a Women in Business luncheon last week that was great. The keynote speaker was the PR girl from the hospital here and she really made an impression to me. Just looking at her you could tell she was confident in herself (or at least REALLY good at faking it). She was a very eloquent speaker and all around very classy. She didn't have on a million dollar suit, but she had put her look together in a way that drew you in. I walked away wishing I was more like her.

Both of these experiences have really made me think. I guess it is just the next ah-ha moment for my life so to speak. I've always wanted to be the type of person that I have now surrounded myself with. I want people to be around me and walk away thinking "Wow she is really put together." These experiences have made me really want to step it up and start being that person I wished I could be. I want to be more put together, more classy and eloquent, more confident.....and I think I am in a place where I can actually start doing that a little better now. Or at least make a good solid attempt. 

So I have made a few goals for myself that I want to be able to revisit and remember why I made them when I'm struggling.

1. Step up the image. Dress for success so to speak 

2. Be more grateful and thankful for the things I have

3. Be more willing to serve others and give of myself (actually look for the opportunities to serve)

4. Be a more involved mother 

5. Find a house (which sounds petty, but I think we'd be happier in a place we felt comfortable going out to play in without running into crazies, or not having to see the cops drive by twice a night with spotlights on)

6. Work hard and don't put off things that I really don't want to do

I hope that this is a good bump in the right direction for me....I really feel like this was the boost I needed for this next phase of my life. I am more at peace and feel less on the fence now and it's been nice. I think it's helped me get into this spot where I can finally work on some of the other things that I've wanted to do but have just been too focused on just making it through to the next day. I'm excited to see how things turn out over the next little bit and am excited for a fresh start so to speak. 

Ok that's all for now I think. As a quick note, it was Ryder's birthday on Friday and we had a great time. I love that kid and although he pushes me to the limits pretty much every day, I can't imagine my life without him. We are learning and growing together, and I look forward to many more years of learning and growing with him. I love you buddy and hope you had a great birthday!

Quick Update On Life

I suppose it's time for a quick update yeah? I am on week number 2 of my new job and I really love it. I miss my old job/people I worked with but that is definitely offset by my awesomely fantastic new co-workers. I love them to pieces and love that their goal is to create a friendly environment that we all enjoy working in. We are still working out some kinks that come with new EVERYTHING (quite literally, everything is different than what we are all used to) but it's going to be good. I also love the fact my gas tank is at the half way mark and I'm going into week two since I filled up. I think I'm going to get a good two weeks out of one tank and based on the fact that I was filling up two or three times a week while I was commuting....I'm LOVING the money I'm saving. I'm also on the hunt for a new house. We really need to move from here, it's just not working any longer and it's time to move on now that I have the steady and predictable income. So wish us luck on that front.

The boys are doing well in school. Nate likes his teacher and loves that she doesn't believe in homework. He is still having issues turning in work though which is beyond me, considering he does it in class. But he's still doing a little better than last year. We had the big maturation program today too that made him a little awkward for the rest of the day. I'm happy I went with him, I learned a lot too and I think it opened a door for us to talk about some of that harder stuff later down the road.

Tyler is doing well also, he really likes his teacher. He's doing good turning in work, our only pitfall at this point is being able to remember to write down our reading every week. We are struggling with that one but doing better. He's a smart kid, he never ceases to amaze me.

Ryder is doing okay with full day school as well, although his adjustment period is about to kill me. Thankfully his teachers say he's well behaved in school but man he lets it all out after school and is a little pill. It's hard to know what to do to help him adjust and be okay. If I make it through this alive, I will be amazed. He's trying my last nerve. But...he is liking the learning and fun he has there, and really feels like a big kid because he gets to go all day. So that makes all the crazy mood swings worth it I suppose.

All three have had quite the adjustment in all reality....it's been interesting. I don't know if I just didn't see it before or what but all three have had some issues with their manners, listening, and doing as I ask. Maybe Ry is just rubbing off on them, I dunno. Either way, it's kind of frustrating. I need to start getting them more involved in some extra activities, I'm hoping that helps. Or at least gets them too tired to fight all the time. Either way it's a win win.

So that's us right now. We are all doing well for the most part and will hopefully all get adjusted soon. And now I am off to bed, I've made a goal to get more sleep this week. We'll see how that goes :)
Good night all.