Tylers Big Surgery

Tyler had his surgery on Tuesday, and oh boy what a trip it was. We went up on Monday night, fully expecting to have to be at the hospital early, so we stayed in a hotel. A rather creepy one at that but that's a totally different story all together. The next morning we found out surgery was going to be delayed, so we figured it wasn't going to be that bad. We got there about 11:15 am, and waited...waited...got registered and checked out....and waited...until a little after 3:00 pm! I felt so bad for Tyler, but he was a real trooper.
The surgery took about 2 hours, and when I went in to see him, he was having such a rough time. Everything hurt and he was confused and crying, and blood was coming out of his nose and mouth. He also couldn't breath well or talk at all due to the breathing tubes. I felt soo bad for him, it was really hard. But we got him calmed down and back asleep and he ended up sleeping for quite awhile after we wheeled him back up in his room. When he woke up he was alot better, we watched TV and movies for a while before bedtime.
The next day we got really bored, so we decided to go roam the halls. The nurses gave us a wheelchair that was just his size and he had a ball in it. We also went to their playroom where we were able to get a prize for bingo day....even though we didn't play. He was very excited. After we got back we got discharged and left, eating some food then stopping in Cabelas for a bit. Ty rode with Dan to Parowan and I picked him up there and then we came home. It was an eventuful trip thats for sure....long and very rough. But we are happy to be home.
Thanks to everyone whos been wishing us well and sending out love and prayers, it was much appreciated!
p.s. Im downloading pics seperate just cause its easier :)

The SLC Trip

Finally posting a couple pics from our Salt Lake trip. Tyler had his first procedure to pop the prosthesis out of the roof of his mouth...step one to the big surgery coming up next month. We had to wake up super early...at 3:30 am...to make it in time for the appointment. I ended up getting lost...as always in big cities haha...but we did make it on time. Barely. He was soo brave. They let us go in the room with him to be able to hold his hand while they put him to sleep and the doctor was soo nice, he drew smiley faces on the oxygen balloon as Ty was going out. The procedure itself was very quick, it didn't take long at all. Me and Dan waited in the waiting room for like, 10 min and it was over and I was able to go in to the post op room while he woke up. He was a tad woozy at first but soon enough he was his own little playful self. We then went home..and got stuck in the craziest rainstorm. Ahead we saw where it broke, right in the middle...and was clear to the road. It was like the rain was parted just for us to go through...for a lil bit. But then it hit us hard and I was hydroplaining all over the place. But...we made it home in one piece. The hospital let Ty keep his oxygen mask, his socks, and a pillow from his stay, and he loved it! So it was a good trip...and he keeps asking when he gets to go up there again! Thats probably a good thing haha instead of him being scared. Anyway...next trip is in a couple weeks on October 6. Wish us luck!

Ty being so brave after he woke up...he was so happy to have poppy blankey :)

The cool storm...you can see where its raining on either side of the road but a clearing in the middle. So cool!

The Last 2 months or so.....

So I finally have internet access...woohoo!! So I'm posting a bunch of pictures from what we've been doin the last two months. When my phone gets turned back on....yes UGH! I will be posting pics from our trip to Salt Lake with Tyler, but for now....here goes!! The last 2 months in pictures form! :)

My cute lil Ry waking up from his nap at Grandpa Cowleys house durin the reunion :)

This is my new hair color...or colors lol I need to get it re-done though its growing out :P

This is Nates soccer team....he loves playing...sometimes....lol

This is Nate throwing the ball in at one of his games...he does awesome when he tries to.

And the infamous first day of 1st grade picture...Nate goobering it up as always...yeah lol

These are the cute lil kitties that were chillin in my parents backyard..RIP fluffy, vince, and possibly tiger who have passed on to kitty heaven.

This is the family at our recent family reunion...it was tons of fun!


So thats it for now...but I'll post some more soon when I can transfer from my phone to internet. Woooohooooo! :)

Been Awhile...

Sorry it's been so long since my last post...life has been busy! Nate started 1st grade, I started up my school job plus Convergys, not to mention soccer for Nate which he is doing really good with so far! And....no internet connection. Yeah. No bueno! But hopefully soon I'll get it back! So anyway life is good...just very busy and tiring.
I'm also doing better this month than I thought. The 29th was supposed to be my due date...and I thought I'd be bummed out all this month but its really not bad. The realization comes and goes that I would've had a lil boy right about now, but I'm ok, the boys are ok, and we are just trudging on. We'll see when the actual date comes...but so far so good.
One last side note...Tyler goes for his surgery to get the prosthesis out on Monday so say a lil prayer for him. This one is very minor but when being put fully under, its always kinda scary. So I think thats it for now! Thanks for the love and support from everyone! I love ya all! <3

Black Ninjas!!

Today was Nate's first soccer game and they actually did pretty good. They ended up losing but for only having one practice...and just now meeting the coach for the first time (he had been gone for the first practice) they did awesome. They still got some things to work on but all in all they were pretty good. Theres alot of natural talent on the team. Nate was awesome and wonderful and marvelous when he was playing goalie, he wasn't afraid to dive for the ball or anything. We just need to work on drop kicks, and his field play. Anywho...here are pics :)

SLC and Back in ONE DAY!!

Today we went up north for Tyler's doctor appointment with Dr. Morales. It was a VERY long day but it had it's upsides. We left at about 6:45 this morning....ugh sooo early! Me and Ty slept most of the trip up....so that made it go by quick. I can't believe all the construction up there! It was crazy! So we got the doctor appointment out of the way and all the scheduling for surgery out of the way, and were up in the dental clinic scheduling the surgery to take out his prothesis, and what happens? They call a code blue (a code meaning someone has stopped breathing) in that very clinic! Ty was amazed at all the people who ran past us, from nurses to docs to security to office people...one thing I know, if something does happen to Ty, he will get speedy help! They are good up there! Then after that we went to eat at Chuckarama and right out the window, the Trax rolls by. Ty wanted to ride on it soo bad! And my mom told me my dad had been wanting to ride it for a long time, so we parked and hopped on. We rode from Trolley stop clear to Central Station and back. It was kinda fun! It was late though, so we had to get headed home. On the way home, it was soo windy that we passed a semi that had just got blown over! It was crazy! And then...we went back to sleep haha! It was a very long day and lots of driving but really good. Oh and as for update...Tyler will be having the same day surgery to have his prothesis popped out on Sept 14, then his actual surgery is on Oct 6.

Dad was soo funny...had the big ol' map pulled out lookin just like a tourist :P

Bored on the way up...after I had woken up.

Ty got his own ticket...and was SOOO excited!!

Dad washing the Blazer with Nate and Ry..doesn't really have to do with the trip but I thought it was cute :P

1 of 2 things.....

When God leads you to a cliff, trust him fully and let go.
Only one of two things will happen...
He will catch you when you fall, or He will teach you how to fly.

Ryder is sleeping, the house is quiet...and kinda messy (I should be cleaning not writing this but oh well)...I'm listenin to my new favorite song She Is Love...and I get this email (thank you Steph for sending it). It tells a sweet story of a wealthy woman who takes care of a homeless man, who in previous years had taken care of her when she had nothing. The story was good, but what got me was the qoute...when God leads you to a cliff, trust him fully and let go. How many times have I hit that cliff? Oh wow more than I can even count.
I've made some stupid choices in my life that did lead me right to the edge. I've felt utterly alone, and like no one understood. But as I was thinking back on my life, I realized the second part of the qoute is true as well; 'He will catch you when you fall, or teach you how to fly.' I have fallen..and hard. But I was helped up and dusted off everytime.
So this brings me to my life at present. I hate my apartment, I hate my job, money is too tight, and the list goes on and on. I could whine and gripe all day. And why? because I'm not doing my part. I am too scared of falling. I don't want to hit rock bottom again...even though I'm already headed there if something doesn't change. But I'm afraid of change. Notice anything similiar? Fear. Fear of pain, fear of hurt, fear of stress, fear of soo many different things that could all go away if I could just let go and jump...and have a little faith. I keep making excuses of why things aren't my fault, why I can't change things around, and it took a good friend of mine to give me a little slap of reality.
He literally told me to quit whining and making excuses. If I want a new job...look for one and actually apply. If I want a new place, call around and get budgeting to see what I really can afford. If I want a better education....get one. Do what it takes. And he's right...I didn't have any excuses anymore when I was done talking to him. And whats the worst that will happen? I fall...and land right back where I am right now.

The Last Day of Swimming Lessons!

So taking pictures with a camera phone is NOT a very good option when wanting clarity, so you really can't tell where my children are....but look hard haha. Today was the last day of swimming lessons, and Tyler passed with flying colors, ready for level 2! Nate...well, 3rd time is a charm they say. He just needs to work on his back stuff. They have LOVED swimming lessons, and they have been both of them more confident as well, its been a nice change.

Tyler was waiting for his teacher to hide some sticks on the platform, and practicing his strokes in this top picture. Nate was diving for rings in his picture next door here.

And Nate was being a dork and goofing off in the picture over here. He's definitely got a little bit of Carlile in him thats for sure. He has been doing good, although not as confident as Tyler is in the water. But we will work on that.

I just realized everyone BUT Tyler were doing the backstroke practice haha. He was too busy uh, doing something, I don't know what. I wish the picture would've come out more clear, he had the cutest orange goggles on, he looked cute in them.

Soccer...

We decided to play soccer today. Oh...my....gosh! I think I have a natural born soccer talent in my family! Woohoo!! Nate takes after momma, except I wasn't a natural born player...it took a TON of practice. But..he on the other hand rocks.

We went to Grandpa and Grandma's house to play in their backyard, and it was super fun! Nate is soo quick on his feet, and even though he was playing in flip flops...I know, not good soccer shoes haha...he has a really good kick and is very fast on his feet. Tyler tried his hand at it too, but decided "pitching apples" was much funner. Sorry Grandpa...I know if you woulda seen that we would've all been in trouble!

Ryder tried to get his hand in on it too....but didn't get the rules about not touchin the ball with your hands. Instead, he would pick up the ball and carry it to the goal. But hey...whatever works. He's not even 2 yet...so it's all good. But he got tired of that game really quick and went back to cookies and sippy cups.

I can't wait to see Nate in action on the field. I know he's goin to be AWESOME out there. He kicked hard, was tricky on his feet...and even caught one of my kicks straight in the stomach just like a goalie is supposed to do. I'm definitely a proud momma today! I was hoping one of my kids would take up my passion for soccer...I think I got my wish. WOOHOO Nate! :)

4th of July Fun

This 4th of July was really pretty fun. I had the day off, woohoo! And we got to hang out with the family and some friends all day. Danny had Nate and Tyler during the morning, they had wanted to ride on the fire truck with him in Parowan, so me and Ryder went to the parade here with the family. It was really fun. Betsys mom Margaret had made cute little candy bags for all the kids and had the very genius idea of bringing candy for the kids, since people here are stingy with candy at parades. It was fun.

After the parade I went and grabbed some stuff to make a salad for lunch and was able to pick up the boys. As always I was late to Betsys but we ate some yummy sandwichs and watermelon and that, and had some very, very yummy homemade berry ice cream and a 4th of July cake. It was the perfect lunch for the day.

The boys were in rare form as always, being show offs and goofing around all day long, which of course, is why we love them. After lunch we decided to go swimming, and all headed over to the Parowan pool. Again, as normal, I was running late cause I had to go grab some money to get in, but when we got there we all got in the pool and had a great time. The water was perfect and warm, and the boys practiced their swimming like they had learned in swim lessons this week. It took Ry awhile to warm up but after a bit he was in there splashing around too.

It was really fun seeing all the stuff they had learned, and how much more confidence they had while in the pool than even a month ago while we were swimming in the hotel over Memorial Day weekend. I was super proud of them. Still has a long way to go for both, but they are gettin there and it makes me happy they have the opportunity to do all that they are doing right now.

After swimming we went to see my friend Meghan for awhile then were going to go out and watch fireworks at Betsy's, but the boys fell asleep on the way out there. Then, fabulously enough, they woke up when we got back into town, so we ended up meeting up with Tony, Valena and Melissa for fireworks at the airport. The show was good and we came home and went to bed. It was a long and tiring day, but very, very fun! Thank you to Betsy for planning such a fun filled day for us to enjoy!