Tuesday, August 7, 2012

I Give Up

Its been a crazy busy week and it's only Tuesday! The days have been filled crazy issues at work and they generally spill over to the night time so I can get things prepped for the next day. And I'm not complaining because I love every minute. I do have definite feelings of inadequacy on several occasions but get reassured I'm doing okay. So In the end I love my job. Love it. So much that I am willing to move for it. But not yet.
After a very long and stressful search for housing, I found one that was wonderful and affordable. Almost too good to be true. Well after waiting 3 long days past the day I was told I would find out... I heard on Monday that I was approved. BUT.
There is always a but isn't there?
All of a sudden the deposit was going to be more than double what he qouted me AND he kept asking me how many bedrooms I wanted and when I was going to move in AFTER I put down $200 to hold the ground level three bedroom that I wanted to move into this weekend. Something about the whole transaction just feels wonky, and its too late to start looking again so...I'm throwing in the towel. I give up. Cedar is where I am meant to stay, at least for the next few months.
So, the next matter of business will be paying off the car, buying a new/better car and paying off the bad debt on my credit. If I can get all that taken care of, there is a high chance I will be able to buy a house in December instead of having to figure out a rental. Fingers crossed this plan goes...well...as planned. All I know is I feel more at peace now than I have in a long time so that reassures me I am making the right decision. Onwards and upwards!


  1. You haven't given up, you've made a decision to stay for now and take a different approach. That's not giving up, that's being smart.

  2. That is a very very good way of seeing it! Thank you! :)