J is for Jesus Christ

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Today is J for Jesus. And I know this is more religious than I normally go, but thats okay. And the whole post won't be about just him, but rather my testimony. I am really thankful to have been raised in a home where the church was so important. I know that no matter what I do or what choices I make, my family will be there to cheer me on or lift me up when I'm down. Even though I didn't always follow what I was taught, I know that Jesus Christ is real and that he died for us so that we could return to him some day. It really makes me feel bad that he had to take upon himself my sins, and I regret alot of what I have done for that fact alone. I know I caused part of his pain and suffering. But I also know that he knew before I was even born what I would go through and gladly took that upon himself because he loves me. I have a testimony that he does love me and my boys and is watching out for us every day. I also know without a doubt that he is watching over Grayson for me until I can return to be his mother. I just need to get my butt moving so I can have that blessing some day. I know that he and Heavenly Father hear my prayers and even though it may not always be the answer I want, I know there will always be an answer. I also know that there is a greater plan for me than I see, and that this life is being lived and my trials are specifically for me so that I can be tested and strengthened to fulfill that plan and gain all the eternal blessings that have been promised to me. I have felt his arms around me more than once and know of his eternal love. As part of my testimony, I want to thank my family for being such good examples to me of the best ways to live your life. Each one of you has shown me what it is like to live a clean and pure life and help me strive to want the same for myself and my family. It really does strengthen me and give me courage to do what I need to do more and more every day. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.